i real-ized something this morning!
when i pray, i say 'Lord, your will be done" but
without knowing it, i'm trying to come up with an answer for the person i'm praying for.
unintentionally, i try to assess their situation and when i can't come up with an answer,
i 'give it to the Lord.'
meanwhile, back at the ranch,
i'm still judging who i'm praying for!
i am nOt coming in all humility.
i look at their sins and see what they should and shouldn't
be doing
or saying
or how they are living.
i'm not laying my life down.
now, i don't verbalize all of this while i pray.
i've not even been conscious of it,
until this morning.
the Lord lives in me.
He dwells on the mercy seat of my heart.
but do i acknowledge Him there?
i seem to be able to stay outside the Holy of Holies,
avoiding the fear and trembling and humility,
by leaning on my own understanding and experience.
i grieve, i cry, i beg for mercy for those i love,
but am i dying for them?
'no greater gift , than that we lay our life down for a friend'
can i get myself out of the way long enough to truly
bring them to the feet of Christ in all humility?
can i,
will i ,
do i ,
say "Lord, but for your grace O God, go i ?"
the truth is,
i am nO better off than aNyone.
the LORD is my righteousness,
but how easily i fall into my own
web of pride and self righteousness and self-deception.
please,
forgive me.
james 2:13 ~ Mercy Triumphs Over Judgement !
