Tuesday, May 14, 2013

pink and blue

pink with sketchy ballerinas
not quite like this but close enough
the wall paper
I remember 2 windows with blinds
and swiss dot Pricilla curtains?
two beds and dressers
and hardwood floors.
I never spent much time in there.
this was my sisters' room.
they fought and whispered and shared
and dreamed and read in their room
together for years.
one was sloppy and one was neat.
they had boundary wars and traded clothes
I had my own room.
blue roses covered the walls that were around the seven windows.
I had to go through my little brothers' room to get in or out of it.
he would sing me to sleep at night sometimes.
whenever I approached the pink room
there were screams from within to GET OUT!
if I tried to borrow clothes, I heard,
you're too fat! you'll stretch them out! go away! Mom!
funny the things we remember.
they are still close today in their fifties.
even though one lives in france.
they have a history together that binds them.
I was told I was almost a twin, but the other sack was empty.
I think I've been lonely ever since.

1 comment:

  1. no wonder we're so alike::::::::i'm your twinzie.

    my momma had a miscarriage at 5 months.
    A little girL.

    Mom always said "She will be your guardian angeL."
    —comfort in that.

    AND thank you, too, for the kind reminder on my blog posting.
    Yes, I'm fighting Ms. D. cuz I know that's all it is::::::::Downer Deb can be so alurring.

    AND YES. She can only disappear with gratitude and God's grace*