back to the light

i believe in Jesus Christ as the Messiah and coming King . He is the only way to the Father.
i don't believe this for any other reason, but that i was chosen to believe this. which makes me all the more humble and grateful. i love Him because He first loved me.
i believe in a God who is sovereign and good.
He is all that is good.
 in His love and goodness He chose to experience pain, suffering, betrayal, and death through His only son for our sakes.

He did this to atone for the damning sin that causes each one of us to hate, judge, kill, mock, covet, avenge, and pontificate.

generally speaking we are conceived in lust and then we live out our days completely absorbed in our own selfish ambitions, self righteousness, self conciousness, and even self loathing,
but from conception to the grave we are consumed with self.
 in the end we die, with the self we cared about and put before all others;
rotting into slime before finally taking on the likeness of the clay, of which we were formed.


we will all die. whether by natural causes, illness, or disaster.
some by murder whether in the womb or in our beds.
what then? i mean, really. what then? just gone? return 3 days later as a horse or butterfly?

i believe we are destined for something much larger than this.
 much greater than this.

i believe we will be transformed. much like a kernal of corn in the dark ground is transformed into a beautiful tall stalk living in the sunlight.

i believe that there will no longer be a measure of time and that there will be no more darkness.

rather, we will live in light,  in every aspect of light,
i.e. knowing  and understanding completely,
 the goodness of our God and what He has done in full.

               > this is heaven.

i believe hell will be darkness.
always reaching but never attaining.
knowing how many many many times i hurt someone or denied the Love of my God
with no chance to change.  (no more time)

knowing all the opportunities i had for charity and joy and repentance, but chose my self before all things.

(my conceit, my pride, my rights.)
with such regret as to cause gnashing of teeth.

we are all in this second category.
none of us are righteous or deserve anything less then hell,
unless. . .
we accept the gift that has been given us - the sacrifice that was made for us.

we didn't make ourselves sinners.
we are sinners.
a snake is a snake. a bird is a bird.
but we have been granted the eyes to see and the ears to hear,
of a gift that was given us with the greatest sacrifice in love and mercy.

you may refute this statement of faith.
it is a hard thing to understand if you haven't been chosen too yet.
but speaking from my heart, what value am i to you if  i 'hide my light under a bowl'?

mercy triumphs over judgement!

grace and peace to you
in love,
gigi